trust

so i'm learning the importance of trusting the Lord a ton lately. i mean, honestly, He can do everything that i cannot do. and He does it so much better! it's freeing really. to know that i can't do anything that has legit merit. only through Christ, only by His grace and in His power, can anything be accomplished. and man, that takes a huge weight off of my shoulders. it's a beautiful thing.

things i'm learning to trust Christ with:

-being myself, and letting that be okay because Christ made me that way

-finances, especially with summer leadership project this summer

-relationships: first with guy-girl relationship drama. i'm letting Jesus take all that from me and have the control, because again, He does a way better job at handling it. secondly, with friendships. He is taking best friends from me and growing me through it, and giving me beautiful new friendships which is awesome.

-grades, cuz i suck at school this semester. but i also know that He wants me to do missions, and nursing will allow me to do that. so i'm gonna trust Him to get me through nursing school.

-my appearance. i'm learning to trust God even when i look like crap or when i sound super unintelligent (since i articulate so so well, ha). and that's also freeing. cuz i can appear like anything to people and it's okay. cuz i'm secure in the rock that is Jesus Christ.

that's all i can think of right now, but that's pretty much most of my life right now. ha. i am so thankful for the grace, provision, and abundance that the Lord lavishes on us. we don't deserve a lick of it. and good grief, He hands it out in bundles.

also, on a more surface note, i'm going to panama city beach on saturday, which is technically tomorrow since it's 1:30 in the morning. i am beyond psyched actually! i have been craving the beach. and also, it will serve as some much needed girl time, since i need a break from the male species. i am also excited about being back there. it feels a little like a second home. i'll be spending all summer there again, and i can't wait. the Lord is so good to me at the beach. i remember Him every time i even hear those crazy awesome waves. i am also excited about being tan, playing volleyball, swimming til i'm ravenous and exhausted, and playing around in the sand.

today was kinda sucky for me because i, in essence, lost a friendship today. that sounds melodramatic, but it kinda is, so....ha. but i also got to talk to my new biffle, promise today. he rocks my face off. and it reminded me once again, that i can just rely on Jesus for provision. where one friend is lost, a new friend is found. also, i got to chat with mi mama. it was awesome. i miss her tons. i get to see her in a week. along with the rest of my fam. love love love them. and can't wait for haley's graduation. she's so grown up. family time!

also, random, but i am pretty much obsessed with adoption and foster care. i want to take in a whole bunch of kids and love on them. i mean, i want my own kids, but mostly adopted and foster care kids, cuz they need to be told that they are loved. unconditionally and immensely. i can't wait til i am old enough to do foster care. i checked it out and even if i'm still single, i can do foster care! so if i don't get married in the next 5 years or so, i'm totally doin it. cuz good grief, those are precious years where i can love on some kids. plus, i'll have a steady nursing income. so i can provide for him or her. :) being single is nice sometimes.

to clear up my last post, i have just been discouraged, and also encouraged lately. i've been discouraged because i hardly ever see a good working relationship. and it's frustrating. the relationships that i think are headed for marriage suddenly show up on facebook as single. i think what is ultimately frustrating is that most of these relationships end because neither person is willing to sacrifice or to give 110%. i mean, i guess it can happen to anyone. it's just discouraging. but because of this discouragement, i'm also encouraged because i know that the Lord will never declare Himself "single". He already gave His son for our sake. He gives everything. and i love that He has given me singleness for a season. it's awesome. so much can be accomplished for His name without worrying about a guy.

alright, i need to go to bed now. but i had lots on my mind. so i had to share. ooh, and i bought new pomegranate shampoo and conditioner today. it's amazing. it smells like an italian soda that i had last summer and i love it.